Earning her keep

Jordan (our terrier mix, or as my friend says, “Jack Russell terrorist”) certainly earned her keep last night. My son was in the back yard when Jordan started going nuts. Butchie went over and starting barking as well. Turns out she had found a copperhead! No one was hurt and my husband killed it, but that could’ve been bad. It was big enough it would’ve killed either of the little dogs and my son would’ve been rushed to the hospital. I’m glad she was on watch!

The good weather continues. I got up and walked both mornings this weekend – it was so nice. I had a bad headache yesterday morning, so I slept in. This morning I got up but had some cooking to do, hopefully I’ll be able to walk this evening.

Food continues to have its ups and downs. Mostly good, although I had a binge incident on Sunday evening after doing really well all weekend. Ugh.

I’m trying to focus on my overall health and the benefits of improved eating, but I just can’t seem to get excited about it. I am still having my breakfast shake with lettuce/ spinach/ sprouts. That plus a salad at lunch gets me a long way in my veggie consumption. So while I am still eating some things that aren’t very healthy (I was tired the other night and made tuna helper with peas added, for example), I am getting in a good quantity of fruit & veg.

I still haven’t turned on my air conditioner. I love the way the house smells when the windows are oopen.

No whine weekend

I was in a much better mood this weekend. Visited a friend Saturday, went out for dinner with a group of friends, had company in on Sunday - and still managed to feel like I'd had a quiet weekend at home. Sweet!

I worked on several sewing projects, which I hadn't done in a while and thoroughly enjoyed. I didn't get all my cooking done though. :-( Oh well!

I walked 2 miles both days and overall ate pretty well. the really nice things my weekends are relatively uncommitted for a good long stretch, so I am really looking forward to just putzing around the house and working on different things with my husband!

Would Miss Crankypants please leave the building?

I don’t know why I’ve been so cranky lately. (Well, part of it is hormonal I’m sure.) Anyway, I’m tired of feeling … dissatisfied with everything. There’s no logical reason for it, so it’s really just annoying!

I’m glad it’s Friday. My house is shaping up nicely and spring cleaning is down to dribs and drabs. Hub has to work tomorrow, so the garage and the railing for the deck remain unfinished. He was out Monday when his back was hurting, so it’s nice that he’ll be able to make up the time.

The boy is over at my mom’s – she is having a yard sale tomorrow and he is helping out. I have my shopping list done, but I can’t say I’m very excited about my planned lunch.

That’s about all I know – have a great weekend!

Blah de blah

The boy wasn’t feeling well yesterday and mom had to take my grandma to the doctor, so I ended up staying home yesterday. I didn’t work from home or anything, I just puttered around the house. I did get a lot of stuff done.
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I have been feeling really down lately. Frustrated about my weight, feeling like I’m not very good at any of the roles I occupy (wife, mother, employee), feeling like I am going through my life on cruise control instead of getting the most of out it.

Maybe I’m having a mid life crisis. Thank goodness I married a wonderful guy who can actually deal with my craziness!
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Spring is lasting a long time this year. Some years we seem to skip from winter straight to summer with barely a nod to spring. This year it seems to have pulled up a chair to stay a while. I still haven’t turned on my AC. I'm hoping that the various energy saving measures we’ve incorporated will mean a lower energy bill. Of course, will the price of electricity go up with the price of oil?
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My eating has been bad. Really bad. I am hoping this group I've set up with a couple of girlfriends here at work will help – we have our first meeting tomorrow. I’ll let you know how it goes.

Yellow alert

Yesterday I got home form work and started mowing the front yard. The boy finished up while I made a really excellent vegan Mexican casserole for dinner. After supper I read a bit then took a walk. I had a healthy snack before I went to bed.

This morning I had a good sized, really satisfying breakfast which contained (I’m guessing) 2.5 servings of vegetables and 2 servings of fruit.

At this moment, my body is screaming “Yellow alert!” The café stops serving breakfast in a few minutes and I am obsessed with going in there and getting some fried potatoes.

I’m not hungry. It’s like I’m panicking because I need to eat some unhealthy food. Or what? Why do I feel this way?

A step in the right direction

I’ve been feeling very apathetic about my weight and health overall. Part of my brain is yelling, “Stop! This is important! You must _____!” And once I hear “must”, I tune out. Part of the issue has been my overall feeling of “blah”.

Today I spoke with a collegue who is also struggling to get “back with it.” She spoke of a third person in our group who is in the same place. The three of us spoke and we are going to have our own mini “Weight Watchers” type meeting – we can set our own goals (exercise, vegetables, whatever) and then be accountable to each other. Small enough to be personal and private, but will hopefully provide that extra bit of accountability we all seem to need.

It was an okay weekend – some good, some not so good. I think my own frame of mind had more to do with it than anything else.

Not a banner week

This has been a sad week in the blogosphere, with several of my regular blog “friends” coping with loss. Running Jack lost his sister-in-law, Jack Sprat’s good friend Richard is at home for his “final hours”, and Fat Cyclist received the worst news about his wife’s struggle with cancer. I have been feeling down and out of sorts – it makes my heart heavy to see folks I’ve been following and reading about for so long facing such tough times.

Last night we had at least 1 tornado come through – thankfully only 1 death was reported, along with several injuries and loads of damage. Our power was out for a while, but that was it. A co-worker who lives a mile or so from me had her boat destroyed in her driveway, planes were knocked off the runways, and some tractor trailers were overturned on the highway when a tornado touched down on the interstate.

Even more awful although more abstract is the situation in Myanmar. I told my mom last night, as much as I gripe about politics and all, I am certainly glad we live where we do in the world. As I sit in my suburban home concerned about the economy, I feel like I shouldn’t gripe about my weight or my poor food choices or gas prices when these people are facing a situation I cannot even comprehend.

What can I do? Send my sympathy in comments. Send some money – but it doesn’t sound like aid will even get to those poor unfortunate souls. I feel helpless in the face of human tragedy, and yet I feel unsure whether I even have the “right” to feel that way – I mean, my family and I are perfectly safe!

I think I was feeling down to begin with (my emotions tend to be cyclical) and these situations have intensified those feelings of sadness and helplessness. And yet I feel selfish for even complaining about my feelings!

Sorry I don’t have a more positive post.

There is a possibility for more severe weather Sunday – I hope we are able to take my mom out for breakfast.

I hope you all have a safe weekend.